So it’s starting to get painfully obvious that I haven’t drawn anything new lately... I think I owe everyone at least a small explanation for my sudden disappearance. xD There’s a few reasons behind it, actually.
FinalsLet’s start with the one sucking up most of my time: FINALS. I have them within a month, and in short: it’s this year or never. There’s this grueling calculus test where the Dutch government is still discussing whether it should be mandatory for high school students or not. I scored 20/100 on that test for three years straight, and this year I even had tutoring for it. If that thing becomes mandatory, I can never get a better education than the one I’ve already finished.
So I have to give finals everything I’ve got this year if I want a higher education, and thus better chances on the job market. I still have to think about studying for a job. In the Netherlands, you can do that at two levels here: MBO (lower level) and HBO (higher level). The chaotic system at HBO studies is what’s keeping me back, since that can basically end an autistic person’s school career there. But I’ve heard that there’s organizations in the Netherlands that help autistic people do HBO and MBO studies.
What does this mean for the art?
This year at school, I’m doing classes that require the complete opposite of creative thinking. Now for someone who draws to make sense of the world at times, you can understand this goes against a large part of the basic way my brain works. I basically had to reprogram myself within a year, and kind of impose an artblock on myself. As someone who has her moments where she needs to draw to make sense of the world, you can understand that ‘this isn’t easy for me’ is an understatement.
But all of this does mean I had to stop doodling during classes, save for that lethally boring English class… xD This combined with having to spend most of my time trying to understand the materials for finals (to the point where it cost me my social life) pretty much completely prevented me from cranking out new characters and stories properly. I’ve had a few ideas, but they aren’t really finished yet. And the only real work I got done is some slight tweaks to older concepts.
I’ll get back to drawing as soon as I can, I promise! I can’t wait ‘till finals are over.